Missing you:

  • While peeling an orange. (Actually, a minneola.)
  • While washing dishes and thinking about how my back hurts.
  • While having an alcohol inspired late night snack of kugel and white bread, cleaning up after a dinner party.
  • While looking at the moon and wondering whether it's full or not.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • While putting on my orange socks for the first time.
  • When I locked myself out of the house.
  • When I found one of your hairs in the fridge (?!?)
  • While listening to Martin Luther King.
  • While listening to "slow jams" on WERS.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • When it's time to empty the dishwasher.
  • When I want you to taste how good the soup is.
  • At night, falling asleep.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • While listening to Ralph Nader.
  • At Frogs Legs.
  • While riding my bike.
  • While eating your kimchee.
  • At Tim & Imke's.
  • In the airplane.
  • When I find the mouse party that happened while I was away.
  • While eating an entire bag of gummy bears.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • While making veggie stock.
  • In a long line at Stop & Shop, panicking because I'm afraid I left the stove on.
  • When it snows.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • When I'm worried we have ice dams.
  • When I think about all the other times you were away already in the last year and all the times you're going to be away again.
  • When I realize I haven't spoken to anyone in four days.
  • When I'm eating all of the cookies and candy and ice cream that everyone brought over.
  • When I realize I haven't watched any movies or TV at all and decide to watch a dumb movie that turns out to be a little bit scary.
  • When it's time to shovel again and it's sleeting...
  • When I heard about Robert.
  • On the 66 bus.
  • Standing in a puddle.
  • While depressed about what I'm doing with my life.
  • Eating dark chocolate.
  • While writing this.
  • While talking to you on the phone, when your voice is so squeaky.
  • Cooking kale.
  • At bedtime.
  • Cooking fish.
  • During a long walk home.
  • All day today.
  • Right now.
  • Right now too.
  • While wondering if I could drink an entire bottle of red wine.
  • While heating up my first ever frozen dinner. (This list is getting depressing.)
  • When I see how tired you look in photos.
  • First thing in the morning when I wake up.
  • At 2:07 am, while insomniacally refilling the water pitcher and noticing that the last time the water filter was changed was over a year ago. (Then wondering if I you have ever noticed and changed the water filter of your own accord in the 16.5 years !!!!!! we've been together now...) Anyway, we need water filters. And stamps, actually. (All of these thoughts, no matter how naggy and insomniacal they sound are full of love...)
  • So much a few hours after you left for TX that I had to put my E shirt on and get back in bed.
  • The morning after you left for Berlin when it suddenly got very dark outside and there was a furious flurry of snow and then it ended just as quickly about 30 minutes after it started. You would have loved it.
  • When I drove an over complicated way to the Subaru dealership in Belmont and was so rattled that I thought it was an hour later than it was and I forgot to tell them which light needed a new bulb, and then discovered on my way home that I was a 2 minute drive from Waverly Sq.
  • When I emptied the garbage in your office and it was full of gum packages.
  • At 11:11.
  • During a certain sequence of events, experienced while walking, that proceeded like this: a smell of hot glue; a smell of skunk; the sound of a small, faraway plane; the sound of dry leaves that should have departed their tree months ago, rustling; an encounter with a white lump on the sidewalk that I thought was a tiny ball of snow, but when kicked, turned out to be a cotton ball; a smell of steam from a metal kettle; a silver sedan, idling in the middle of the street, license plate #S42727 at 8:33pm.
  • When I saw (but left in place) a hair of yours on your scrubby thing in the shower.
  • After an exhaustive and fruitless search for any size nailclipper.
  • All of the sudden, in the middle of eating a popsicle.
  • While thinking about your laugh when you think something is really funny.
  • Looking at your well-used toothbrush.